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Sermon transcript for August 10, 2014

Romans 10:8b-13
Emilie M. Townes Dean and the E. Rhodes and Leona B. Carpenter Professor of Womanist Ethics and Society Vanderbilt Divinity School
Belmont United Methodist Church 10 August 2014

pastoral prayer

maybe you remember this game from childhood: king of the mountain—it was decidedly not the king of the mountain you find in the urban dictionary the object of my childhood game was to try to get to the top of a mound of dirt or snow and stand there yelling "i'm king of the mountain" it wasn't possible to be king for very long since every other kid on the hill was trying to take over the top position it was a rough game and it was rare that no one went home with some part of the body a bit bloody and there were always a fair amount of shattered egos when you didn't make it but many of us kept coming back some of the kids, who had some sense and were good at strategy went to the mound of dirt when the other kids weren't there and sat or stood on top in silent testimony to their good sense

i wasn't terribly successful at playing the game but i do remember how good it felt what a sense of accomplishment wafted over me when i stood or sat on top of that mound of dirt and declared myself king (and later queen) of the mountain even though no one else but God was around to see my victory and share my joy now that i've grown a bit older, i like to think that i don't play king of the mountain any more at least i don't play it the old fashioned way but if i'm really honest with myself i have to admit that there is still some of that old king-queen mentality there and i do find new ways to play that old game from time to time

yes, there is a strong sense in many of us to play the role of king or queen as often as possible we expend a great deal of time and energy climbing one mountain or another in our careers, we may be in the position of having to prove ourselves constantly to co¬workers and bosses so that we don't slide or loose our place on the mountain known as work in the pressure of our work and in our own desire for security and status we may find ourselves leaving others by the wayside as we climb our partners or spouses our lovers our friends our health all these and more, suffer in our climb to success as the long hours and all too frequent preoccupation with work begin to wear them away and we hear ourselves or feel ourselves wondering if being the king or queen is really worth the price we have to pay

and we are tempted into playing king of the mountain in our personal lives too often the goal of being on top of things becomes our guiding principle we think something's wrong with us when we don't have total control of ourselves and the situation we think we have to manage every aspect of our lives—perfectly we have to be
the perfect spouse
the perfect partner
the perfect lover
the perfect parent
the perfect sister
the perfect brother
the perfect son
the perfect daughter
the perfect friend
the perfect student
we drown ourselves and those around us in our drive toward being, doing, giving, and representing it all we take that old army recruiting line, “be the best you can be,” to the absurd and we lose ourselves we lose our spirit in trying to manage every aspect of our lives into perfection and heaven forbid that we should trouble others with our problems because that would be admitting that our perfection has some unpaved places or uncertainty being king or queen of the mountain means being in control and when time and circumstance prevent us from being in control we blame ourselves for being weak or unrealistic or emotional and it frightens us then, for some strange reason we think fear is not human or natural so we withdraw or we spend our time apologizing or avoiding it's hard for us when the king or queen in us faces financial trouble or substance abuse or mental illness or senseless violence or the loss of a loved one it's difficult for us to admit our brokenness and it is oh so tempting to pretend that we don't need any help from anyone or from God like the game of our youth, king of the mountain, it is dangerous to play and it tempting

when we are caught in this game it will help if we remember Paul's words to the romans the word is near you, on your lips and in your heart; because, if you confess with your lips that Jesus is sovereign and believe in your heart that God raised Jesus from the dead, you will be saved brothers and sisters, we have to be willing to be vulnerable we have to get a grip on ourselves and admit our humanness we must learn to confess our faults and our strengths to a power and presence that knew us before we were born and loves us with a fierceness that rocks us when we need to be comforted and challenges us when we need to move out of our inertia such honest confession can only come through a faith which is not content with where it is today but is ever-growing a faith that widens its boundaries and is willing to be tempted and buffeted by
new ideas
new people
new circumstances
and a new witness
for it is confession and faith to believe with our hearts and be justified to confess with our mouths and be saved it is confession and faith that leads us into new journeys of wholeness and redemption it is confession and faith that teach us about a peace a spirit a principle within a mission it is confession and faith that enables us to ask the important question what's so gosh awful special about this mountain, anyway

we have to remember again and again Jesus' own struggle against the temptations of success and control if we look at the gospel again we see that he could have chosen a much more "successful" path Jesus could have presented himself as the ultimate success story, the epitome of the model of triumph he could have been a flashy leader relying on miracles to prove his authority turning a few stones here into bread, a jug or two of water over there into wine Jesus could have opted to appear to be totally in control throwing himself dramatically off the temple tower and daring God to save him but this was not the path he chose Jesus did not come to us as a miracle worker or magician he was utterly human and wonderfully divine he knew well the struggle of living—it's rough edges and challenges as well as its happiness and joy and he consciously chose not to play king of the mountain in his ministry he chose to be prophet of the valleys one who walked and ate and lodged with those who had been kicked to the base of the hill the ones who the rest of society despised the mountain he chose to climb was a hill called Golgotha where he died the death of a common criminal, not a king or queen

V. brothers and sisters, God does not expect us to always be on top of our lives or the situation even though we often expect ourselves to be let’s live more fully into our humanness—it’s moments of the sublime, it’s times of despair celebrating the living we do in the meantime Jesus is with us wherever we are on life's mountains and perhaps he seems most near when we lose our footing and wind up with bruises and scrapes from a fall O yes, God knows our pain and comes to bind the wounds and to lift us up by God's own tender and passionate grace all we have to do...all we have to do: is accept this gift offered in love offered not by the king of the mountain, but the ruler of creation and beyond thanks be to God!



Sermon transcript for August 3, 2014

Feeding the Multitude
Matthew 14: 13-21
Belmont UMC—August 3, 2014
Ken Edwards, preaching

When Jesus instructed the disciples to feed the crowd of people, the disciples must have felt overwhelmed. Matthew writes that there were 5000 men, plus women and children and we like to count the women and children, too. So the crowd could have been as many as 10,000 people or more. The town in which I was raised had a sign that read, Welcome to Springfield, population 10,000, so I always try to imagine that they were trying to feed my entire home town with five loaves of bread and two fish.

The disciples’ respond to Jesus, “We have nothing. . .”  (v. 17a) They wanted to send the people away. No wonder!

I served two small churches when I graduated from seminary. One was a small church and the other a very small church, and though the small church was active and vital it didn’t have much in the way of money. My salary was supplemented by the Conference and my full-time salary the first year was $10,500.

One of the first persons I met was the treasurer, Raymond, who lived next door to the church in a neat, small ranch house. He told me that he had been very close to the previous pastor and when he left he vowed not to get close to another one. He seemed distant and a little crusty at first. Over the next few months he warmed up to me and my wife. My grandfather had died right before I graduated and this man became a surrogate grandfather to me. We would stay up until 1 AM working in his shop, refinishing furniture and telling stories.

I had asked him for a copy of the budget when I first arrived and he said, “We don’t have one; we just pay the bills when they come in. And you need to watch your spending because we don’t have enough money to pay them all.” I had made a case for having a budget but he was unyielding. After a few months I realized what Raymond was doing to balance the budget. He never put any money in the offering plate when it was passed in church. He would wait until he paying bills and he would make up the shortfall by writing a check to the church. His wife confirmed this but Raymond denied it. He was a generous man, even if he was a bit of a liar.

The church didn’t have much but we were doing some great ministry and the church was growing in numbers. We had an active youth group and we were involved in several local outreach ministries. We paid our Conference askings in full every year. Still, I spent a lot time worrying over what little we had to work with.

One day I came out of church and found two women in the parking lot. They were attached to metal detectors and had the headgear listening for sounds that would bring them hidden treasure. They saw me and stopped and frankly the sight of them irritated me. I said, “Ladies, I hope you find some treasure because we’ve been looking for it around her for a long time without success. I’ll leave the front door unlocked so you put whatever you find in the offering plate.”

And then I said, “If you want to find treasure here, you need to come back on Sunday morning and meet the people. They are the real treasure of this church.” The two ladies fled to the car and sped away.

This was a turning point for me. I heard myself say that the people were our real treasure and it caused me to quit fretting over having little or nothing to work with. On Sunday I took a long look at the people (70-80 people on most Sundays) in the church and I said, “God we don’t have a lot of money, but we have a church full of resources. I was kind of like the disciples who said, “We have nothing. . .”  But then they added, “but five loaves and two fish.”  And Jesus took what they had and managed to feed the town of Springfield with it. Imagine what Jesus could do with 70 or 80 committed disciples.

We are often guilty of seeing what we do not have and forgetting that a little is a lot in the hands of God. Small churches use their size to excuse them from service. “We are too small and cannot do that.” Large churches find other excuses, often focused on scarcity rather than the abundance of God.

In Mary Pipher’s book Seeking Peace, she references the scene in the movie, Jaws, where the local sheriff is chumming for the great white shark. When it appears out of nowhere and its size is so overwhelming, the sheriff says in a major understatement, “We’re going to need a bigger boat.” (p. 176) Pipher was writing of her recovery from an emotional breakdown while on a book tour. In her recovery she realized that she needed a bigger container. She needed God, for prayer and meditation, and space for something beyond herself.

The disciples need a bigger container (and so do we), one that reminds them and us that five loaves and two fish are huge in the hands of God. Once we acknowledge what we have and give it to God, anything can happen. We give what we have to God and God’s deep compassion becomes the catalyst for a miracle.

There was a story being passed around last week from one of the Sunday School Classes in this church. One year the class was signed up for Room in the Inn for the following Friday night. It happened to be Christmas Day and no one signed up—everyone was too busy to host homeless guests in the Community Center. Then one person said, “I could bake a turkey.” (“I could bring 5 loaves and 2 fish.”) And her simple act of selflessness inspired the others and before the end of the day a feast had been set for those who were homeless and hungry.

Today about 400 Central American children will cross our border looking for hope and a new home. They are hungry and desperate and fearful. That’s more than 10,000 children a year; that’s a multitude. Some will say, “Send them away. We do not have anything to give.” Others are hearing the call of Christ to give them something to eat and they are heading to the border to give what they have. Because that is what Jesus would do. And they will watch God’s compassion give birth to a miracle.

“Taking the five loaves and two fish, Jesus looked up into heaven, and blessed and broke the loaves, and gave them to the disciples and the disciples gave them to the crowds. And all ate and were filled.”

This morning I want to encourage you to come to the chancel as we look up into heaven and bless bread and wine, and I want you to look around at the people in this church. We will not be able to say, “We have nothing. . .” We will say, “We are blessed. We are full to overflowing. We bring what we have and we watch God work the miracle.


Sermon transcript for July 27, 2014

Meditation for Service of Healing Prayers
July 27, 2014
Belmont UMC—Ken Edwards, preaching

Today’s service invites us to a time of healing prayer. This may be new to some of us, even though Services of Healing and Wholeness are a part of our tradition. We’ve offered services of healing prayer during Lent but not on Sunday mornings. This service came out of a period of discernment by the worship staff. And while the idea of coming forward to be anointed with oil, a sign of God’s continuing love for us, and having someone pray with you may seem new to us, prayers for healing are not new.

We are probably more familiar and comfortable with praying for others. I receive numerous prayer requests during each week. I see them in church newsletters I have served in the past, in emails from Sunday School classes and on the Tennessee Conference website. We are glad to offer prayers for others in need. Sometimes prayer for ourselves or those closest to us makes us a bit reluctant. We are always more comfortable being on the giving end than on the receiving end of prayers.

There are many needs for healing in our broken and hurting world. During Holy Week this year, as in every year, the sanctuary was surrounded by Stations of the Cross. In one station stood the cross we recess to the lawn on Good Friday. In front of it were ribbons in many colors. The colors represented different needs for healing and people were invited to tie one of the ribbons on the cross. On Good Friday, when the cross was taken to the front lawn, others tied additional ribbons to the cross. I still have those ribbons in a basket in my office. I took them to staff meeting recently as a visual reminder of the needs of our community and our church. The represent a fraction of the woundedness and brokenness that exist around us all the time.

After Jesus called the disciples and they began to share the good news with others, they became overwhelmed by the numbers of people who were coming to them—so many that they did not have time to eat. At one point Jesus invited the disciples to go away to a quiet, deserted place to rest. But the people kept coming. He said that they were like sheep without a shepherd and he had compassion on them. (Mark 6-30-34) We are often overwhelmed by the enormity of human need and our prayer list grows faster than we can keep up.

We all come here in need of healing of body, mind or spirit. Who among us has not felt a bit wounded by living in this world? Some of are in need of physical healing. Others are in need of emotional healing or healing from painful memories. Some of us know people who suffer the wounds of Post Traumatic Stress. There are broken relationships in need of healing. There are those among us who are struggling under the heavy weight of grief. There are some who suffer from dark bouts of depression.

This past week I read Parker Palmer’s description of the deep depression he experienced in his forties. He wrote of his healing this way. “I felt at home in my own skin, and at home on the face of the earth for the first time.”

What are the areas of your life that are in need of God’s healing touch?

At one church I served we held monthly services of healing prayer. We gathered on Sunday nights. The services were simple and open ended. We read scripture, sang hymns and shared together in Holy Communion. After people took Communion they were invited to kneel for anointing and prayer. The size of the crowd varied depending what was happening in the life of the congregation.

One Sunday morning an older woman named Dot came to me at the end of the worship service and told me that she had been diagnosed with inoperable cancer. The doctors told her that the cancer was treatable but not curable. She was a dear, sweet lady who rarely asked for anything for herself. She was not comfortable telling me about her illness but she asked to be on the prayer list.

Dot came to our Service of Healing and Wholeness the next Sunday and brought her daughter and her two sisters with her. I recall worrying that the service might giver her unrealistic expectations regarding her diagnosis.

After receiving the bread and cup of the Eucharist, Dot made her way to one of the stations where she could be anointed and prayed for. I watched her and said my own prayers for her.

Weeks and months passed and Dot’s health steadily declined. Finally, she entered hospice care at her daughter’s home. The associate pastor and I took turns visiting with her and praying with her. Each week Dot would greet me in a very weak voice, but she would say, “I have some things on my heart that God wants me to tell you.” Each week this quiet and introverted lady would tell me something incredibly profound and prophetic. It was obvious that she and God were communing closely during these last days of her life.

One day she said, “God wants me to tell you to quit worrying so much about you children’s behavior in church. Spend more time playing with them and less time disciplining them and things will go just fine.” I wondered if my family had put her up to that, but I never forgot it.

One day she said, “I never told you about my healing, did I?”  I was perplexed. She proceeded, “It happened that night at church when those kind people put oil on my forehead and prayed for me. I was so anxious and afraid of facing this journey with cancer and I needed God to give me peace and reassurance. When they prayed for me, peace flooded me and has not left me since. God gave me what I needed and I am so blessed.”

What areas of your life need healing?

God meet us here at the place of our deepest need. We need to come with a posture of openness and a level of vulnerability that we are not accustomed to having.

Parker Palmer said that for years he lived in denial about his depression but it kept following him around shouting at his back, throwing rocks and hitting him until he hurt. One day he turned around and said, “What do you want from me?” In acknowledging this deep need, he began to find wholeness.

At the basic level of why we pray is that we believe in the God who loves us. God meets us here as we come with open hearts.


Sermon transcript for July 20, 2014

“The Lord is in this Place”
Genesis 28:10-19a
Belmont UMC—July 20, 2014
Ken Edwards, preaching

The Lectionary readings for several weeks have us visiting with a man named Jacob. These passages contain rich stories about this rather flawed Biblical character,
Jacob, son of Isaac and Rebekkah and fraternal twin of Esau (first born). Jacob is favored by his mother but because of being second in birth, he is not in line for his father’s blessing. His name means “heel grabber” because he is born clutching his brother’s foot. And throughout his life, this man who would become the patriarch of a nation, uses dishonest scheming and deceit to grab everything he can, including his brother’s birthright . He cheats his own father and cheats his equally deceitful father-in-law through some unexplained and clever animal husbandry.

As one writer said, “Jacob was never satisfied. He wanted the moon, and if he’d ever managed to bilk Heaven out of that, he would have been back the next morning for the stars to go with it.”  (Peculiar Treasures, Frederick Buechner, p. 57)

The Bible gives us many characters in their true colors. We see their imperfections and flaws: Noah and his indiscretions, Abraham in his lack of faith, Sarah in her jealousy of Hagar, Isaac in his naïveté, Moses in his self-doubting, David in his infidelity, Elijah at the point of giving up, Simon Peter in his impulsiveness and Judas in his betrayal. Today these leaders would have a front team, handlers, speech writers and spinners to help them present a better self.

Barbara Brown Taylor described her relationship with the Bible as a marriage, not a romance, “one I’m willing to work on in all the usual ways.” She writes, “What the Bible isn’t is a collection of stories about admirable men and women who loved and served their Lord. It is an encyclopedia of human life on earth, with a few saints and far more scoundrels who lied and cheated their way into the annals of sacred history. Hearing their stories, I listen for family resemblances. . . But throughout all their stories, which are also my stories, I hear God’s story, and that is something else altogether.” (The Preaching Life, “Bible,” pp. 51-62)

Do we see ourselves in these stories? Do we see ourselves in their everyday struggles with life and faith that may mirror our own experiences?

There are two parallel and comparable stories of Jacob’s encounters with God. The first story is the one we read today. Jacob’s mother has encouraged him to go to her family’s home in Haran to find a wife. She is worried that Esau will kill him and she’s sending him away. He’s running away, running from the consequence of his actions, running from the past, running for his life, and hopefully, running toward a fresh start and a brighter future.

So Jacob runs to a place of rest and he takes a stone to use as a pillow and he dreams. He dreams of a ladder extending into heaven and the angels of God are ascending and descending. And the Lord stood beside him and made a covenant with him. He takes the stone used as a pillow and makes a marker out of it and he names the place Bethel, which means ‘house of God.”

Jacob says, “Surely the Lord is in this place and I did not know it.” He ran away but he ran into the very presence of God.

The story causes us to ask ourselves if we can run away from God. And we can certainly try. We run from our mistakes, our painful memories, we run from our disappointments, our failures and our struggles.

But the Biblical image of God is a pursuing God. God pursues us to reveal God’s love to us and to be in relationship with us. We run away and often find ourselves running into the very presence of this pursuing God of grace.

I recently reread sections of Ann Lamott’s book, Traveling Mercies, in which she describes her spiritual journey. As an adult she found herself living near San Francisco, writing some to pay her bills, but mostly drinking to escape, to run from her past, her fears and insecurities.

On Sunday mornings, still dizzy and hung over, she would find herself wandering around a flea market near her home.  One day she was drawn toward a little Presbyterian Church near the market. The sweet sounds of music appealed to her in her weariness. The sounds of hymns sung by older women floated through open windows and the sounds  of music drew her in.

One day she entered the church and stood in the back and listened to the singing. She repeated this on many Sundays, always careful to leave before the sermon. She would sing along with the hymns, writing, “I could sing better there than any where else.” The people did not push her. They loved her and gave her room to find her way. Through their love Lamott found healing and transformation.  Ann Lamott continues to be a part of this congregation to this day.

I often wonder who may enter this place, like Ann Lamott, on a Sunday morning, needing to hear the music of God’s grace, needing to find their way, and needing our love and gentle encouragement to find healing. In this place, that may be a running away place, may we come to discover God’s presence and say, “Surely the Lord was in this place and we did not know it.”

The second story comes on the eve of Jacob meeting with his brother, Esau. He’s afraid and he goes to place by himself to be alone. There is a man there, a mysterious representative of God and the two of them wrestle all night long. At the end of the night the man blesses Jacob with a limp and a new name, Israel, which means “one who strives with God.” Jacob names this place Peniel or “the face of God.”

Jacob wrestles with the man, but he also wrestles with the truth about himself. He is wrestling with his faith in God. We must do the same spiritual work as we become honest about who we are. This can be painful and difficult work.

Years ago I saw a cartoon of 2 little boys who were looking through an anatomy book and seeing drawings of internal organs. One little boy says, “It’s not very pretty but it’s who we are on the inside.” We try to put up a good front. We avoid being vulnerable. We are afraid of what people will think of us. But to encounter God, we must be honest and confessional.

We wrestle with our faith, where there are no pat answers to the difficult questions of life. We work through our faith with fear and trembling, but God is there to help us. This is a good place to wrestle with our faith and find people who will love us and walk alongside of us and give us room to question and learn and grow.

These Jacob stories are about places, but they are not merely geographical places or places where Jacob has run to hide, but they are places where Jacob is surprised by the presence of God. They are sacred places where God turns the ordinary into something holy.

They are the places where Jacob is able to move forward in this covenant with God. Each encounter changes him and moves him forward in his faith and prepares him to be the leader of a nation. The stories invite us to remember and revisit those places, those moments, those turning points, which moved us closer to God.

There is a lot of grace in these Jacob stories. If we had met Jacob at his running away places, we would have given him a good tongue lashing, but God meets him there and gives him a blessing and a promise and a beautiful vision of ascending and descending angels.

Grace always surprises us! Maybe we came here this morning expecting judgment and condemnation. Maybe we felt we deserved that. But we were surprised to find God in this place and our God meets us here with love, grace and forgiveness. It is in God’s extravagant grace that we find healing and transformation.

Maybe we came here as ones who are running away and were surprised to run right into the very arms of God.

Maybe we came here wrestling with some truth about ourselves or we are wrestling with issues of faith (or doubt). We found a safe and grace filled place to be honest and vulnerable. We found blessing and hope for new way forward. We found God and said with Jacob, “Surely the Lord is in this place!”



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